You will never know

You never have seen how I can make these words flow

Never took the time never cared

In the beginning so charming pretending to care

Years went by then you never knew the real me

Never tried so many nights I’ve cried

Finding my voice I have managed to do

Writing or creating in some way

Its too bad you never knew

Our words or expression can be our footprints in our life, 

what we feel, what we say, how we express,

 but to leave a lasting impression so we make a difference.

We can rise out of the ashes of pain, abuse and mental torture, 

the evil ways of the abuser can leave lasting stains on us 

but we and rise above walk away. 

Abuse of a narcissistic parent or partner can be torture of the worst kind psychical battered & bruised, mentally wounded, keeping you down, playing mind games, turning you upside down is the worst kind of torture. To break free break away to make one self whole again, they will never know that. Pain that they feel its just normal. They turn around on you constantly. They are wounded people, not happy inside. They wish they could be a good pure soul like their targets. That is why they pick certain targets. They can manipulate, deceive, and abuse. its very scary to live with just a mind like that. It fills you with anxiety, worry, constant second guessing, wondering if your right or are they right about me.  That is the true mind f**k they do.

Abuse is no joke in any form, but Narcissistic abuse is the ultimate torture of life. The only way to peace is to walk far away and stay away. Be aware of abuse, all of abuse, it an awful life, a life of pain and distress of the worst magnitude.